Hesitance Reframed

I found my first ever blogpost on a wordpress.com site I had forgotten about!  I thought I had lost that post, thinking it had been posted on my wordpress.org website. But, while commenting on a friend’s blog and having to sign in, I discovered MY blog!  What’s even more interesting is that the sentiments revealed in that post mirror my current feelings about being visible in the world – even after seven years of growing into this new role.

What’s different is that NOW I am much more patient with the pace at which my transformation is occurring. I can see the growth that has taken place, and appreciate more and more just how monumental it is to transform deep limiting beliefs. I’m open to the idea that the beliefs that linger are the ones that contain my true purpose for life, and also are the source of my power and my niche.  It’s the very people who recognize themselves in MY transformation who I am here to serve!  The more I’m willing to SHARE my steps of evolving intentionally from a shy, invisible heartsinger into a joyously prosperous, dynamically visible and authentically transformed leader the more others on the same journey can see me as a model.  Read this post from February, 2010 to see my mindset when I started my coaching business. Then, stay tuned for the continued tales of transformation!

“Do you take steps into new territory with ease?  I learned last week in the Spirit Rich Retreat that I don’t!  At least, not in the realm of career.  Sure, when I get out on a Nature trail, I confidently and eagerly embark on a journey.  My heart sings when my feet hit the Earth!

So, why do I resist taking steps in creating my business?  Why have I resisted claiming my joy as a hiker, a Nature guide, a consummate Nature lover?  I can see it more clearly now.  I’ve had deeply ingrained beliefs that expressing my joy as a professional Nature guide has been something I’ve believed I can’t do!

I’ve surrounded myself with people who tell me that’s not a real job. I’ve  convinced myself that the national economy supports that belief too.

Well, I’m ready to topple that belief!  I’m ready to claim that exploring Nature, guiding others in Nature, and hiking ARE viable career choices for me!   I’m ready to attract mentors, clients, supporters, venture capitalists, marketers, health practitioners, insurance agents and all sorts of other experts into my expanding circle of creators.  I’m attracting all sorts of people who say “Yes!” to me as a spiritually and financially rich Nature guide.

Maybe it’s not that I have to convince others to enjoy Nature.  I have to convince ME!”  I wrote this seven years ago!

Does any of this resonate with you? Do you feel trapped by your limiting beliefs and wonder if you’ll EVER be free of that one way of being that just seems all-pervasive, like it must just be the way you “are”?  If it’s something you’d like to change, that you have a hard time accepting about yourself, then let’s chat!  I want to LISTEN to that S.T.O.R.Y. or   that Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning.

This is ONE of the evolutionary discoveries I’ve made since writing this first blog. As I observed my own growth, I’ve coined this and other descriptions of myself, then put together ways to have it be different!

  • First is to LOVE myself being just that way!
  • Next is to get really good at feeling and expressing how I really FEEL
  • Then, say, “Hey! I think I could just be making this all up!”
  • Next, say, “I’m open to seeing this differently.”
  • Then, I go for a WALK, to let that new thought settle into my body.
  • Finally, I let SPIRIT do the rest, and I watch the miracles happen.

What’s even more exciting is that I can see obvious changes in my life that prove these steps work!

  • I have satisfied, successful clients who have had breakthroughs in all of these steps.
  • I have a new relationship, and love myself having divorced.
  • I am financially prosperous
  • I even landed not just one but TWO jobs that rely on loving Nature, hiking, and sharing bold ideas.

I wrote that post seven years ago.  I can see that I’m still shy about revealing what’s really going on with me, but I’m still DOING IT!  The difference is that I see my shy, invisibility as my source of power, and authentic vulnerability. Hey! If a shy, reluctant person like me can get out there and teach, share, coach, and guide, then ANYONE can transform their own life!  So hop on this path and play with your own transformation!

Let’s chat!  Get into my calendar and set up a time.  20 minutes if you’re just dipping your toe in. I’m willing to give you a full 45 minutes for a Dream Weaving session if you’re eager to jump in to looking at yourself with love.


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