Ease

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May 16, 2016
Why does it matter to me so much that I feel balance and ease and beauty on the trail? I’m reading the blog of a woman hiking the Pacific Crest Trail. Her feet hurt. It’s hot. She thinks she has to walk further every day. She lost her first toenail and believes that just goes with the territory. Snakes. Poison oak. Poodle Dog Bush.
Her  writing is alluring because I keep wondering how much worse it can get. Cold. Dirt. Fog. And all of it is baneful, and somehow necessary for pushing through. read more

Accept

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May 13, 2016

Today, I accept myself being afraid to share HeartSingng Walk because my emails might bother someone. I accept myself being frustrated by an admin’s rule to not allow coaches to recruit clients in her Facebook group.

I am open that there is an opportunity for me to learn and grow.

My Nonsenses Immersion has sharp borders today. Oh! I just got something from that! I had started with a used painting that had a defined shape. When I applied red, I just went right along with that boundary! Just I like do in the group! It then defined the rest of the painting. read more

Growing Vision

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May 12, 2016

Nonsenses Immersion becomes my “safe place” as I procrastinate reaching out to my community. I am pondering how to make a transition from pert follower and insignificant participant in someone else’s Facebook group to popular, influential, authentically attractive leader of Regina’s HeartSinging Journeyers.

Magic Itinerary Man

May 10, 2016

“If we can take a walk and then  be in a wifi phone spot at nine, that would be great.” I have a magic itinerary man. One of the troubles turned blessing that I’m receiving by allowing Forgivenesswalks to become real is to accept my partner’s passion for exploring. What if, instead of selling out on my business because I don’t have time to do the work, and it’s not something we do together, how about if I let him choose, design, mastermind our itinerary to support me creating connections with my mentors, clients, community? read more

Words

May 9, 2016

Today’s Nonsenses Immersion started with words. I was inspired to write words that expressed each of the Nonsenses on the blank paper, anticipating their respective colors. The words informed, energized, and balanced each of the colors as the dance unfolded. What surprised me was the appearance of that form! It was first a vague form, then seemed to need refinement – and feet! Feet are important for standing on the ground, on the Earth! This immersion speaks especially to me today about an invitation to express in words. That’s perfect for my focus on getting out an email to my list on May 10th! That’s the date that I’ve chosen to begin my 62 Days of preparation and community-building for HeartSinging Walk! It’s time for words! read more

Contented

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May  8, 2016

The Park season is waning and I am feeling contented with the idea of working for Forgiveness Walks this summer. Allowing coaching, offering programs and products to be the real job that I do within a nomadic setting, is becoming something I can say casually, matter-of factly.

Money Matters

What will it take to know myself as someone who confidently requests and receives money in exchange for my coaching? Today, I acknowledge my belief that I’m acting as if these statements are true: “It’s not ok to request payment for hiking consultation because others do it free.” AND “It’s silly to think that hiking coaching could be my real job! Ridgerunning is a real job, nature interpreting is a real job, but coaching while hiking can’t be a real job.” read more

Emotions Become Symptoms

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What an interesting occurrence! This morning when I immersed myself in my nonsensory energy through sensory tones and colors, I felt drawn to linger, to truly immerse myself in the security and familiarity of the exercise, the vitality of the colors. Is that a characteristic of being 23 days into this practice?

Or that today I really needed the balance and vibrance? As the day unfolded, I succumbed to uncomfortable physical symptoms of headache and nausea, that got worse at work.

I’ve come to recognize these symptoms as my manifestation of suppressed emotions. I was upset and stuffing the feelings. Although I haven’t mastered the art of avoiding the syndrome, I’m willing to acknowledge the emotional nature of it. This time, I caught on early and rearranged the day to go home and rest. read more

Unworthiness Challenged

An argument is wrangling inside me. There’s an actual physical tension in my belly. That’s the FEELING of fear and guilt attached to the thought, “Those other people who have written their books and created their films about their Appalachian Trail journeys are better than I. I have a wonderful personal story of transformation and love, but I haven’t written my story! I don’t deserve recognition or getting attention, and on and on….”
Well, today, I know that this is a S.T.O.R.Y. – a Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning,  playing out for my learning and growing. And today, I know that I can love myself having this Story and take it into the Thirteen Steps. So, I’m off to do that! Perfect setup  for NonSenses Immersion!
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Onward

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A friend sent a reframe of my Old Story “I was cheating on my husband while hiking”. Her words suggested this other perspective: “your marriage was cheating on you. You were being true  to yourself. I hadn’t thought of that before! From that angle, the shame can subside.

Heart’s green light flows today, from a self-loving center core out to the world.