What will it take to know myself as someone who confidently requests and receives money in exchange for my coaching? Today, I acknowledge my belief that I’m acting as if these statements are true: “It’s not ok to request payment for hiking consultation because others do it free.” AND “It’s silly to think that hiking coaching could be my real job! Ridgerunning is a real job, nature interpreting is a real job, but coaching while hiking can’t be a real job.”
Plans
Do you make plans, then have backup plans, or fallback plans, none of which seem like what you REALLY want to be doing? The source of the plans are from a list of thinhs I already know are possible because they are already being done, either by me or someone else. I lived like that for decades. I was really good at accommodating, always making the best of my life, willing myself to be content with the life I knew was possible. I believed that what I really wanted, the intimate partnership I desired, the lifestyle and purpose I saw others living that enticed me, were unavailable to me. I resigned myself to accepting what I had, acknowledging that it was the best that I COULD have.
Unworthiness Challenged
An argument is wrangling inside me. There’s an actual physical tension in my belly. That’s the FEELING of fear and guilt attached to the thought, “Those other people who have written their books and created their films about their Appalachian Trail journeys are better than I. I have a wonderful personal story of transformation and love, but I haven’t written my story! I don’t deserve recognition or getting attention, and on and on….”
Well, today, I know that this is a S.T.O.R.Y. – a Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning, playing out for my learning and growing. And today, I know that I can love myself having this Story and take it into the Thirteen Steps. So, I’m off to do that! Perfect setup for NonSenses Immersion!
Inner Listening
Today’s Nonsense Immersion accompanied inner listening to my body and moving where the sound enticed me to go. Sore, stiff muscles soaked in the tones and light, especially green, relaxing and strengthening.
Surprising
I love this kind of experience when a practice I have chosen as a habit surprises me with a novel result. Nonsenses Immersion did that today! First of all, I had the feeling to start with purple instead of red. I played the tone for that highest energy level and laid on the color. It just didnt feel right! The lowest tone and red light felt calming, grounding. Blue wanted a ckear crisp boundary – all around the frame, then stars! Oh my, this is interesting! Finally, violet had its reprise. Ah! This feels expansive and uplifting, as that spiritually connected nonsense is. The crisp edges came again and lingering with various shades of purple created a playful satisfying feeling. Fullness, richness, connection with Life fills me! I feel blessed with Light all around!
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Clear Message
May 30, 2016
Today’s Nonsenses Immersion invited the blue energy to be expressed in a clearly defined form. “Let your message be clearly defined and communicated,” I discerned as I chanted the tones and painted the colors.
Yes!! I’m on it!
See for yourself and comment. What message rings out from my website? I’d love to hear what you get.
Thanks!
Regina
Inner Flame
I was up during the night reading the Trail Journal of a woman struggling on the Appalachian Trail. Her friend requested trail angel help in the form of slackpacking – shuttling her pack so she can walk w/o gear.
Judgements surge! If she had my coaching she’d be delving into her Inner Journey!
Fast forward…… to taking back this projection to the possibility that it’s MY Inner Journey work to be done!
What arose in my Nonsenses Immersion was a flame of creative empowerment, capped with a gem of spiritual light in the spectrum of wholeness. The characteristic blending of all the energies to create each other was felt strongly.
What She Said
A Dreaming AT Hiker comments:
“My husband wants me to wait a year to save up, to spend and experiment with all things before going on a through hike. I want to start in June, 2016, maybe not finish, maybe hike for 3-5 months. I’ll be on SS, not very much, but enough to hike I think. Give me your thoughts. I know it is my decision. I’ve been backpacking for years, but never on my own. I have most all gear, but I need a few things, lighter stove, pad and such. Sunday was actually the first day I’ve been 13 miles. In fairly good shape, hike or bike almost daily and I live in the mountains.”
Saving Mr Banks – and Me Too
I watched the video of Mary Poppins, followed by Saving Mr Banks which reveals the story of P.L. Travers’ journey to signing over the rights to her creation. It was a Radical Forgiveness journey. How? The author had a S.T.O.R.Y., a Sustained Tale of Repressed Yearning. Mary Poppins had been Mrs. Travers’ characterization of her childhood experience with her dad, Mary Poppins playing the role of magical rescuer and someone who set things right.
What I realized from Saving Mr Banks was that what it took to share Mary Poppins with the world through the eyes of Walt Disney was “finishing the story”. Allowing her dad to rise out of his prison, to find his joy AND be prosperous, let her share Mary Poppins with the world. Letting there be a New Story, set Mary Poppins free.
Heart
I lovingly embrace ALL my life experiences with ease and joy.
Even the scary ones! Even the ones that invite me to allow one certain man to love me and know what I ‘m thinking and feeling. Even the ones that mean sharing, sharing, sharing (oh my! this is so hard for me and I don’t know why, oh wait, I do know why, it’s because I might make a mistake and someone could be uncomfortable and judge me for being greedy when really they’re seeing themsleves in me because they want to be brave and share what Spirit sings in them…….)