I want MY outcome to be like Jill’s in Jill’s Story! It’s the story of Jill, Colin Tipping’s sister, whose marriage is saved when she does Radical Forgiveness. I first read it seven years ago when my unhappy marriage was trapping me so much that I was willing to do something about it. Passionless and unexpressive and lacking the companionship I craved, I embarked on my journey with Radical Forgiveness. I did forgive myself and start living and expressing what makes my heart sing. But, for me, instead of getting closer, we drifted apart. Even though we both did worksheets and played Satori, we didn’t grow in love. Today, I’m sitting in a divorce attorney’s office, believing that our path to joy is through this process.
I just joined a community of people trying out Radical Forgiveness for the first time. My first worksheet was done about eight years ago! I haven’t stopped since because they work, like magic really.
There I was, standing on the Appalachian Trail just a few miles from the Tennessee/North Carolina border. I was there with my husband feeling one with my pack and excited about embarking on this month-long walk together. My mind was at peace. The upset and readiness to abandon the whole trip just 10 days before, had been turned into a blessing!
I haven’t even gotten out of bed yet and have already taken a significant journey! It’s an inner journey from upset and quandary to peace and illumination.
It started with checking email, finding Colin Tipping’s invitation to do a Radical Forgiveness worksheet. I did.
As with all worksheets, I had a shift in perception. I forgave myself, then wrote in my notes the following:
I may be holding JR hostage to my inability to monetize my own purpose. I didn’t believe in my self expression, so I gave it up for financial security even to unconsciously promise sexual fidelity with no guarantee of companionship. Well, it’s apparent that JR is done with that. I’m holding on, still clinging to the floating chest of gold that is my life raft among the debris of my marriage with JR.
Crafting a divorce means honoring the finite reality of our journey, gratefully receiving m
y share of the spoils, and channeling anew the resources to create my next work of art, independent of JohnReiter. Cherishing our independence means honoring our divorce.
It also means taking responsibility for channel
ing resources for my vocation.
Walking into my dream of creating a hiking lifestyle has been a journey of many steps. Just like in a long walk in the physical world, manifesting a dream has pauses at beauty spots where light shines and the view is crystal clear.
In my wilderness of bringing my hiking lifestyle dream into reality, a light flashed when I realized that the two realms of the sensory and the non-sensory are both accessible and useful to me.
The sensory realm is what I can access by using my five physical senses. I see, smell, hear, taste, and touch things that have become “real”. This realm puts me walking on a specific trail, or having the perfect backpack show up, or a client calls for an appointment.
The Nonsense Realm, on the other hand, are all those “realities” that are difficult to explain, to describe, to access with physical senses. And yet, I discovered that they help me bring my dream into physical form.
Intuition, gut feelings, emotions are examples of nonsense phenomena. Healers and creators talk about “chakras”, energy centers related to specific beliefs and ways of being in our lives. I started playing with these and discovered that these are phenomena in the “nonsensory” realm.
They can be strengthened and accessed through sensory activities: sound, light, color.
My favorite way is through my Nonsense Painting Journey.
On my walk this morning, a hummingbird flitted into view. Here. There. Zoom. Zoom. Sip here. Dart there. Gone.
Here’s what Hummingbird taught me today. “Nourishing my dream and doing my work can be done in multitudes of quick, small, even seemingly random actions. Keep moving. Don’t dwell. Go for the bright spots. They have the most sweet nectar.
How does Hummingbird teach you?
Walk on into your dream!
As Gregg Braden pointed out, we are, like the imaginal cells of the emerging butterfly, standing between the breakdown of the old and the birth of the new.
That’s true for me this week as John and I take deliberate steps to divorce.
Divorce isn’t so scary and frought with shame as I had imagined. John is communicating clearly as he always has.
I do feel physically self conscious, my skin starving for touch and that satisfying caressing that assures me of the boundaries of my body. Holding hands and being held seems pretty basic to my well-being.
Regina’s Gear Lists
Backpack Contents for Summer
Trash compacter bag lining the pack
Pro-lite 3 Thermarest. ¾ length
Sleeping bag: Western Mountaineering 30 degree down bag
Extra clothing: fleece cap, long sleeve midweight thermal shirt, 1 pair smart wool socks, wind shirt,
Shelter: Custom homemade silnylon tarp with net tent liner (from Ray Way kit)
Backpacker’s Poncho for groundcloth and raingear
Cookset: 1qt stainless pot with lid, Pepsi can stove, 8 oz. denatured alcohol, foil windscreen, pot lifter
Food: 1-1.5 lbs per day
Wash bowl: Small zip-loc lidded bowl, small sponge, 1 oz. bottle of Dr. Bronner’s soap
Water bottles: 3 liter capacity
Comfort Couch: 12”x14” piece of ensolite pad
First Aid Kit
1 oz. bottle hand lotion, 1 oz.Tecnu
2-3 plastic grocery bags for trash or bagging wet stuff
It’s easy to have fresh food on the trail. Sprouted lentils or mung beans provide the crunch and zest of salad in a packable form.
Here’s how to do it:
1. Soak dry lentils or mung beans in a ziploc bag overnight or until they’re soft.
2. Rinse and drain off the water.
3. Give them air and rinse them a few times a day.
4. Enjoy when the first sprouts show.
For more Light T.E.N. food ideas for backpacking, email Regina at email@example.com
I’m excited to be sharing a couple of my favorite activities with the Trail Dames at the 2012 Summit. Www.traildamessummit.com
Here’s the clinic I’m leading bright and early on Saturday morning.
The Sense and Nonsense of Hiking a Long Distance Trail
Along with the gear and food that goes into preparing for a hike, it also helps to clear our emotional pathway as well as we get ready to go on a long distance walk. In this session you will experience two gateways to prepare your unique pathway to walk into those big dreams. Regina will guide you to awaken your five senses and then create your own Energy Color Wheel that you can take home with you. From this awakened place you will explore your life’s Big Dream and identify practical next steps to have it come true. This is a lively, heart-centered, experiential workshop!
The Sense and Nonsense of Hiking a Long Distance Trail.
It’s morning in a Virginia mountain forest. I’m awake at 6 a.m. listening to the sounds outside my tent. Melodic trills. Whining whistles. Urgent notes increasing from loud to piercing. Hollow pecking. Raucous scolding calls. Buzzing that whooshes past my ear. One propeller in the distance. I can just barely make out the hum of cars on a highway. Sharp Percussive hits rustle leaves on the forest floor. These sounds I recognize. I greet the birds by name whose voices are familiar. I rejoice that i didn’t set up my tarp under the tree that’s dropping nuts. I drift back into half sleep.