Fulfillment Partnership Journey
November 1, 2016
I noticed this morning that John asked, “How can I make your morning special?” My response was, “talk with me.”
I ventured into expressing my ever-present imagination of having a life partner who shares my fulfillment. I spoke about that and John listened without balking.
What I noticed is that as soon as I had shared a bit, I balked! I thought, “whoops! There I go again, talking too much, laying out my impossibly demanding, far reaching, complicated, outlandish life-purpose thing that no one else could ever live into! Why can’t I just settle for being loved and cared for?” And then I apologized.
“Sorry I say too much.”
And then, John met me. He said, “Well, I support you in living that purpose, really being it and attracting that partner, and maybe it can be me.”
I noticed that I really don’t believe that I can HAVE my fulfillment partner. I pull back in embellishing the vision, receiving it, believing that I “already have it” as a manifestation in the implicate order.
I project on John NOT having it, that he has to shy away, stop talking, balking. And then I act as if unfulfillment is my reality.
I now know that I have a CHOICE about what to project!
Step. Step. Step.
Later. We took a walk in a beautiful canyon for a few hours, talking the whole time! Well, we stayed in conversation, but what I got was that the words “life purpose” stirs John’ s unworthiness story!