June 15, 2019
1,650 miles east of our starting point, our third sunrise greets us with trees! What a contrast to the pink and purple sunrise innour departure from Anza-Borrego Desert State Park in southern California. What a difference in vegetation rain makes! Our Outer Journey has been a marathon of driving on interstate, mostly I-20. We veered off in Dallas, TX for a warm-hearted gathering with one of my nieces just north of Dallas. Seeing her new baby for my first time was worth the two-hour sidetrip! An extra bonus was that her sister with her two “middle-aged” kids and their mom, whom I haven’t seen in 14 years, were also meeting her at a restaurant! I made up a new name for her husband, but quickly realized my mistake and quipped, “Anyone else want a new name? I’m good at making them up!”
I notice as I write this that I feel comfortable and at ease with family at this time in my life. Could be age and experience and being one generation removed from these nieces and great niece and nephew. Could it also be that forgiving my parents and siblings was first on my list when I started using the tools of Radical Forgiveness 13 years ago? I remember how tense and defensive, reluctant to speak, and sarcastic I used to feel at family gatherings! So much inner judgement and feelings of unworthiness and criticism! Now, I love and accept myself, my life purpose, and the presence of my siblings as healing angels for me to really feel the pain of separation from Oneness in my human experience. Oh my! We did a fantastic job at that!
I am so grateful for having these tools of Radical Forgiveness to use to get a new perspective on ALL my relationships! I use them every day (well, most days! I still resist going into my feelings, choosing stuffing them and hiding out as the more familiar path).
It helps me to share these anecdotes with you to remind myself to keep using the tools, living this journey of being a spiritual being having a human experience. As I travel, I realize that there are unlimited opportunities for practicing my Inner Journey!