Contented

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May  8, 2016

The Park season is waning and I am feeling contented with the idea of working for Forgiveness Walks this summer. Allowing coaching, offering programs and products to be the real job that I do within a nomadic setting, is becoming something I can say casually, matter-of factly.

Money Matters

What will it take to know myself as someone who confidently requests and receives money in exchange for my coaching? Today, I acknowledge my belief that I’m acting as if these statements are true: “It’s not ok to request payment for hiking consultation because others do it free.” AND “It’s silly to think that hiking coaching could be my real job! Ridgerunning is a real job, nature interpreting is a real job, but coaching while hiking can’t be a real job.”

Time for a little reframing and turnaround statements! First, for Nonsenses Immersion. Be back later!
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Here it is! What occurred to me in today’s experience is “starting with blank space, I engaged in applying the colors in a systematic way and now there’s a beautiful painting. I didn’t visualize it ahead of time or plan it out, except to work in a circle this time instead of horizontal patches. What if doing business is like that too? Taking the steps of presenting content with inherent value, just like the colors, and present them in a systematic way, allowing their natural value to entice others to invest their own energy to participate in the activity themselves.

What do you think? Is this valuable to you? Do you have valuable content that you’re reluctant to offer? Do you have experience in making this shift in your own business?

I want to hear from you!
Please comment.
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Emotions Become Symptoms

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What an interesting occurrence! This morning when I immersed myself in my nonsensory energy through sensory tones and colors, I felt drawn to linger, to truly immerse myself in the security and familiarity of the exercise, the vitality of the colors. Is that a characteristic of being 23 days into this practice?

Or that today I really needed the balance and vibrance? As the day unfolded, I succumbed to uncomfortable physical symptoms of headache and nausea, that got worse at work.

I’ve come to recognize these symptoms as my manifestation of suppressed emotions. I was upset and stuffing the feelings. Although I haven’t mastered the art of avoiding the syndrome, I’m willing to acknowledge the emotional nature of it. This time, I caught on early and rearranged the day to go home and rest.

This time, my selfcare also includes using an energy shifting tool that helps me identify which emotion is there and clear it. It’s called the Behavioral Barometer, and I’ll have to post the source later.

Although I hadn’t realized just how much I was suppressing the emotions of the past few days, there have actually been several sources of feelings. I guess it all built up. Perhaps the most significant is that today was the new ridgerunner’s meeting with the trail partners. And I wasn’t there! For the past six years I was the one kicking off the season with that meeting. This year, I’m choosing something else. I’m confident about my choice and didn’t realize there was some grieving needed to move on! On top of that, I had offered to call in and join by phone and got no response from the organizers – the people who had praised my work so grandly and even offered to pay me to orient the new guy! Seems that I really was upset and not actually feeling neutral about it!

Which emotions came up to be cleared? Longing. Feeling incurable. Feeling unacceptable. Feeling abandoned. The Emotional Barometer suggests healing feelings. Mine are Decisive. At peace. Intent. Calm. Purposeful.

This is a useful tool for me, a habitual stuffer of feelings that become symptoms. I’m willing to love myself just as I am and be grateful to have this tool to clear these emotions when the symptoms are minor headaches and stomach troubles. Perhaps, they won’t get stuffed into the deep recesses of organs to become cancer…….
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I allowed myself a second NonSensory Immersion, building from the same painting as this morning. I experienced richer, deeper patches of color, more texture, and physical sensations in the corresponding areas of my body.
I rounded out the session, luxuriously long, with a closed-eye meditation with the tones. A thought that rose was this: “Perhaps grieving the closure of my Ridgerunning period flows into the resistance to a New Phase!”

Choosing something different than Ridgerunning begs the question, “What?” I’ve been anwering that with “Expand Forgivenesswalks!” Yet, THAT choice has me becoming something I have yet to understand, to know in my habits, in my sensory reality! Perhaps THAT uncertainty is a source of physical symptoms as well.

With that realization, I could now claim that I am open to knowing myself as the businesswoman creating a community of HeartSinging Walk journeyers who are eagerly investing in themselves, courageously immersing themselves in song, sensory awakening, nonsensory charging, and the Thirteen Steps.

They are feeling their feelings, loving themselves just as they are, and imagining new perspectives and possibilities for their walks, dreams, journeys they had never done before. They feel radiant, alive, calm, open to a new sense of wellbeing that emboldens their steps with new clarity and self confidence.

That is what I imagine and receive for myself!

I would love to chat with you about what resonates with YOU in my exploration today!

Send me an email at regina@forgivenesswalks.com

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Thanks for journeying with me!
Regina

Plans

Do you make plans, then have backup plans, or fallback plans, none of which seem like what you REALLY want to be doing? The source of the plans are from a list of thinhs I already know are possible because they are already being done, either by me or someone else. I lived like that for decades. I was really good at accommodating, always making the best of my life, willing myself to be content with the life I knew was possible. I believed that what I really wanted, the intimate partnership I desired, the lifestyle and purpose I saw others living that enticed me, were unavailable to me. I resigned myself to accepting what I had, acknowledging that it was the best that I COULD have.

Walking from Maine to Georgia on the Appalachian Trail opened up a door to a new perspective. I experienced myself feeling fulfilled, being with someone who shared my passion, seeing myself physically and emotionally purposeful. Why not continue living that way?

I’ve been doing my best living i to that since then.

Clarifying what makes my heart sing and doing THAT, even in small ways has helped me choose from among various plans. In addition, surprising opportunities, even better than any of the plans I had, have appeared. I’m learning to go with the heartsinging.

Unworthiness Challenged

An argument is wrangling inside me. There’s an actual physical tension in my belly. That’s the FEELING of fear and guilt attached to the thought, “Those other people who have written their books and created their films about their Appalachian Trail journeys are better than I. I have a wonderful personal story of transformation and love, but I haven’t written my story! I don’t deserve recognition or getting attention, and on and on….”
Well, today, I know that this is a S.T.O.R.Y. – a Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning,  playing out for my learning and growing. And today, I know that I can love myself having this Story and take it into the Thirteen Steps. So, I’m off to do that! Perfect setup  for NonSenses Immersion!
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Here it is! Funny how it happened that before I got to the colors, I responded to a thread about trailnames, contributing my unique name story to the other beautiful ones. Then, I interrupted the immersion with an email to my former ridgerunning partners, which only I could have done.

What the colors showed me today is that each color IS unique. Blue cant be green – or yellow or red. Yet, they all need to be there for the whole spectrum. Each person -including myself – has a unique story and contribution to make to the World, creating the rainbow of God!!

What’s YOUR uniqueness? Are you living it? Hiding it? Yearning for it? Discovering it?

I want to hear about it! Let’s chat!
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Form Arising

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My Nonsenses  Charging paintings the past two days have emerged with form! Usually, the colors alone in patches and washes satisfy my feelings for a color immersion. As I’ve been shifting my perspective of sharing HeartSingingWalk from secretively personal to universally integrated, I’m allowing sensory shape to become visible.

As I write this, especially those words “universally integrated”, I realize that this journey of consciousness is actually way bigger than my own life! What seems to me now to be a big transformation for me in my own life CAN go even beyond what I have been imagining, until now anyway. I have been fairly daunted with the vision of a tribe of a hundred embracing and integrating HeartSingingWalk in their lives. Suppose the true spirit of HeartSingingWalk is to reach even further than my community! How about thousands walking to Wild Wind and Senses Walk! Holy Moly! That knots my stomach!

What it also does is help me ease into the idea that there are a HUNDRED heartsingers energetically  vibrating with HeartSingingWalk in its current phase of reality.

The tree form arises as a metaphor of my growing idea. From a rich and supportive root of personal and professional assistance in the fertile soil of Time the trunk of Forgivenesswalks rises upward. The tree’s trunk is formed by its sturdy principles of Spiritual and Human unity, Nourishment in Nature, Authentic personal expression as fulfillment of Higher Purpose, and others waiting for language.

These principles grow and branch upward as specific programs and products, delivered through a dichotomous array of community members, all connected as tree branches and growing organically.

The growth experienced by each member produces the leaves, those manifestations of the play of light and water.

That’s the Forgivenesswalks Tree!

I believe that any growing idea could be as a tree, even an imagined walk of the Appalachian Trail! That’s an interesting juxtaposition – turning that wonderful journey metaphor into a tree! Try it! Then, set a time to chat about it with me! I’d love to hear what’s arising from your Nonsensory play as your metaphor for a creation.
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Hesitance Reframed

I found my first ever blogpost on a wordpress.com site I had forgotten about!  I thought I had lost that post, thinking it had been posted on my wordpress.org website. But, while commenting on a friend’s blog and having to sign in, I discovered MY blog!  What’s even more interesting is that the sentiments revealed in that post mirror my current feelings about being visible in the world – even after seven years of growing into this new role.

What’s different is that NOW I am much more patient with the pace at which my transformation is occurring. I can see the growth that has taken place, and appreciate more and more just how monumental it is to transform deep limiting beliefs. I’m open to the idea that the beliefs that linger are the ones that contain my true purpose for life, and also are the source of my power and my niche.  It’s the very people who recognize themselves in MY transformation who I am here to serve!  The more I’m willing to SHARE my steps of evolving intentionally from a shy, invisible heartsinger into a joyously prosperous, dynamically visible and authentically transformed leader the more others on the same journey can see me as a model.  Read this post from February, 2010 to see my mindset when I started my coaching business. Then, stay tuned for the continued tales of transformation!

“Do you take steps into new territory with ease?  I learned last week in the Spirit Rich Retreat that I don’t!  At least, not in the realm of career.  Sure, when I get out on a Nature trail, I confidently and eagerly embark on a journey.  My heart sings when my feet hit the Earth!

So, why do I resist taking steps in creating my business?  Why have I resisted claiming my joy as a hiker, a Nature guide, a consummate Nature lover?  I can see it more clearly now.  I’ve had deeply ingrained beliefs that expressing my joy as a professional Nature guide has been something I’ve believed I can’t do!

I’ve surrounded myself with people who tell me that’s not a real job. I’ve  convinced myself that the national economy supports that belief too.

Well, I’m ready to topple that belief!  I’m ready to claim that exploring Nature, guiding others in Nature, and hiking ARE viable career choices for me!   I’m ready to attract mentors, clients, supporters, venture capitalists, marketers, health practitioners, insurance agents and all sorts of other experts into my expanding circle of creators.  I’m attracting all sorts of people who say “Yes!” to me as a spiritually and financially rich Nature guide.

Maybe it’s not that I have to convince others to enjoy Nature.  I have to convince ME!”  I wrote this seven years ago!

Does any of this resonate with you? Do you feel trapped by your limiting beliefs and wonder if you’ll EVER be free of that one way of being that just seems all-pervasive, like it must just be the way you “are”?  If it’s something you’d like to change, that you have a hard time accepting about yourself, then let’s chat!  I want to LISTEN to that S.T.O.R.Y. or   that Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning.

This is ONE of the evolutionary discoveries I’ve made since writing this first blog. As I observed my own growth, I’ve coined this and other descriptions of myself, then put together ways to have it be different!

  • First is to LOVE myself being just that way!
  • Next is to get really good at feeling and expressing how I really FEEL
  • Then, say, “Hey! I think I could just be making this all up!”
  • Next, say, “I’m open to seeing this differently.”
  • Then, I go for a WALK, to let that new thought settle into my body.
  • Finally, I let SPIRIT do the rest, and I watch the miracles happen.

What’s even more exciting is that I can see obvious changes in my life that prove these steps work!

  • I have satisfied, successful clients who have had breakthroughs in all of these steps.
  • I have a new relationship, and love myself having divorced.
  • I am financially prosperous
  • I even landed not just one but TWO jobs that rely on loving Nature, hiking, and sharing bold ideas.

I wrote that post seven years ago.  I can see that I’m still shy about revealing what’s really going on with me, but I’m still DOING IT!  The difference is that I see my shy, invisibility as my source of power, and authentic vulnerability. Hey! If a shy, reluctant person like me can get out there and teach, share, coach, and guide, then ANYONE can transform their own life!  So hop on this path and play with your own transformation!

Let’s chat!  Get into my calendar and set up a time.  20 minutes if you’re just dipping your toe in. I’m willing to give you a full 45 minutes for a Dream Weaving session if you’re eager to jump in to looking at yourself with love.


My S.T.O.R.Y.

“I’m not doing a real business because I don’t have clear products and services or even feel comfortable inviting someone who is struggling with planning to talk with me. I lurk in someone else’s coaching circle, offering suggestions with no authority or compensation; I comment in the women’s hiking group, requesting fb friends, but don’t have my own group.  And if I do share, I’ll do it wrong.I should have my own group but I don’t have time! I don’t know what to call it! Poor me! Dumb me! Unworthy me! Not doing this right me!”

Here’s how this is a Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning
I’ve been a shy, jealous, unworthy girl all my life! Yet, I know that I have tools, perspectives, and value to share that can – and has- helped others. My yearning is to contribute, thrive, and easily share helpful tools that help others love themselves, love their walks, love the mountains, feel awesome, and feel radiantly fulfilled.

My Radical Forgiveness steps:
1. You got the story!
2. Feelings: sad, afraid – selfblame and shame!!!!
3. I love myself having these feelings and know that when I’m ready I can choose peace!!
4. I am open to another view. The others are healing angels for me.
Everything is in Divine Order. I am taking small steps and anyway right now, I am working fulltime in a job. Coaching can come when the time is right. I love myself and others just as we are. I agreed to myself to clarify steps, and I could do those rather than tackle the “hard” stuff.

Singing Wild Wind
forgivenesswalks.com/wild-wind

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And charging my Nonsenses with a  color play……

Choosing a New Story from my Satori Board Game deck: “I am the luckiest person alive! I am so grateful!”

Now, on to my day at work, walking this into my body.

Update 12 hours later: As usual, MY projection on the world was inaccurate to what was actually happening – someone I met was getting ready to accept my offer to chat while I was believing I was doing it all wrong. Good thing Spirit is the True guide!

Reality

My ex, three sons and baby grandson all got together  this weekend – on the opposite shore of the country. I wasn’t there – and shouldn’t have been. At least, that’s what my current S.T.O.R.Y. (Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning) supports.

What a perfect situation for the steps of Radical Forgiveness: allowing my feelings to arise,
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noticing my judgements, loving myself for having them, and being open to a new perspective.

That new perspective was suggested in a Satori Game that I played with a client a few days before the family visit.

Notice the beliefs shown in the photo. It was those New Stories that opened my eyes and heart, though!

Do you have an Old Story to tell? I’m here to listen! Schedule a 20-minute complementary Storytelling Session and feel lighter right away as I witness and validate your story! Click the link and choose a time that works for you.

http://regina.acuityscheduling.com

OR write it out and email it to me.
regina@forgivenesswalks.com

Important Details

A dreaming Pacific Crest Trail hiker posed this question in a women’s hiking forum: “When & where will you start? how long have you been planning? Would you share some of your plans/knowlege… I’m so nervous I feel I will leave some important detail out.”
She’s touching on one of the Five Essentials in the Guiding Star for Radiant Hiking, and that’s TIMING. Timing is essential in many aspects of our fulfilling walks. When we consider our hike in our life, the timing in the seasons, the timing of each section, in our daily pace, and even in the timing of each step, we can fashion a walk that builds from the inside out, one that takes outer shape from our inner intention. Our hike becomes an expression of our purpose and our physical and spiritual rhythm.

My suggestion to her would be to sit quietly and imagine herself in rhythmic timing in all of these areas and listen to that inner conversation. Then, bring those answers into her plan with the trail. My belief is that this will lay a foundation for a radiantly fulfilling walk.