High Country Week

Notice and Wonder
August 3, 2017

 

My Ridgerunning walk this week focused on what’s called the High Country of the Mt Rogers Recreation Area in Virginia.  My first night out on Thursday, I camped at a spot I’ve had my eye on while I walked through there other weeks. It’s on Stone Mountain, just south of “The Scales”, an open, grassy field where cattle ranchers would weigh and sell their cattle before driving them down the mountain. The story goes that they realized that the cattle weighed more before they made the descent to town! Now, The Scales is a favorite car camping spot.  I prefer to walk a mile south on the Appalachian Trail, up Stone Mountain, to camp.  There, the grassy, and bushy bald stretches for a mile with expansive views. The low vegetation is broken by groups of short trees, bonsai-like stands of beech trees, just 5″ in diameter and fifteen feet tall. They create inviting rooms of shade, where the wild ponies can cool off.  I walked away from the trail a couple hundred yards and set up my tarp under a sprawling oak tree in a patch of grass.  In the morning, the view across The Scales and the valley below inspired me to take time to do a quick watercolor sketch of  the distant Wilburn Ridge, where the trail would wind its way south.

One of the programs I do during my winters at Anza-Borrego Desert State Park is called Notice and Wonder.  It’s based on the three prompts that naturalist, John Muir Laws teaches. He encourages teachers to take their students outside and practice journaling in Nature, making notes and drawings of what they notice, what they wonder, and what their object reminds them of.  This past winter, I used my weekly program to motivate my own regular journaling. On Friday morning, this week, that Wilburn Ridge scene caught my attention for a session of Notice and Wonder!  Here’s what I came up with:20170804_075955

Notice and Wonder is not so much about making a beautiful picture but about spending time with a scene to integrate the shapes, colors, and details of something I observe in Nature!  I noticed that the coniferous trees stood out individually on the skyline. I noticed the various shades of green. I noticed the unique and specific shape of the ridgeline. Recording it would help me remember and internalize the shape of that mountain!  I wondered if I would be able to recognize each of the points I observed when I walked there later that day.

Paying attention to the mountain in that way did, indeed, make it become a more deeply experienced and memorable relationship! Now, in my mind’s eye, I can see the Wilburn Ridge, even after I’ve left it!

Crew Work
August 5, 2017

Today, I joined the volunteer trail crew from the Mt Rogers Appalachian Trail Club to build a fence. Stephen, from the Forest Service, the partner agency for this section, had brought the needed supplies and tools up in a truck. In three hours our crew of nine, with no boss, just cooperation – and luck – tore down the dilapidated fence and replaced it with a new wooden fence and metal gate. I had a fun and satisfying time of volunteerism and cooperation. That’s how the Appalachian Trail works!20170805_131944

Resonance on the Trail
August 7, 2017

On Monday, my last day of the week on trail left me a few hours to walk alone – in the rain! I reveled in the beauty of the trail and let my thoughts drift to imagining a fully developed and full-time Forgiveness Walks fantasy.

The business is thriving, with a team of assistants to help with online marketing, program implementation, and logistics. Women come regularly for custom coaching throughout the year, and on-trail programs, including a walk of the Appalachian Trail, uniquely focusing on creating fulfilling walks for each client. What’s unique and wonderful about Forgiveness Walks is that our focus on fulfillment in deference to accomplishment provides the creative space for each woman to delve deeply into her own heart’s singing. This listening shapes her relationship with Nature, the Appalachian Trail, and whatever venue provides the best canvas for her personal creation.

I walked for a couple of hours in this revery, reaching Old Orchard Shelter just as the rain let loose in perfect time to take a break in the dry shelter. Two women were there as well. One greeted me with “Beautiful day, isn’t it?” And she was serious!

Over the next hour the three of us chatted, getting to know each other – easily like hikers do! Amy’s story resonated with mine as soul sisters choosing fulfillment over expectation, letting go of unfulfilling relationships during the course of our thru-hikes. April, too, has divorced and teaches young children to recognize, acknowledge, and move through their feelings. These women understand Forgiveness Walks! Amy, too, knows her walking and breathing rhythm that makes climbing mountains easy! April talks about giving children space to “have their feelings” without rancor, special attention, or admonition.

The rain abates, we exchange contacts, and I walk on to my car parked a mile and a half away, my week’s walk complete. Affirmation that Forgiveness Walks resonates in the world lightens my steps. Its timing is guided by the Universe, allowing me to hold it gently with trust in its unfolding.

 

 

Solo Time Wanes
August 8, 2017

Next week marks my last solo week at the Ridgerunning job. John, having completed his project of climbing four state high points out west, bagging him all 48 of the lower-48 state high points, is on his way back. The ones he did between July 11 and August 7 were Mt. Hood in Oregon, Ganett Peak in Wyoming, Mt. Rainier in Washington, and Granite Peak in Montana.  It was a major accomplishment and scheduling surprise for him to get to do all four of them during the month!  I am very excited for him, knowing that he really wanted to complete this project.  I have mixed feelings about getting back together, though!  I’ve realized over the past year, now that we’re actually living together and not just hiking, that I tend to discount my personal preferences, defer my passions, and take a back seat to his choices when we are together. Being solo this month gave me unfettered opportunity and space to pay attention to my own choices without interference from someone else. For the month, anyway, I really enjoyed it!

I noticed that I’ve been making up a S.T.O.R.Y. (my acronym from Radical Forgiveness for a Sustained Tale of Repressed Yearning) about my assumptions about how my relationship with John has to be!  What’s really bothering me is that I see some of the same characteristics that I developed in my marriage with John Reiter!  First of all, this makes me see clearly that I am the one who is creating this as my reality, so I’m the one who needs to change it. In fact, what I now know about relationships is that none of this has much to do with him. The troubles originate with me!  That means that it’s my responsibility and my opportunity to choose a different way of being!  But what options do I have???

Satori Means Awakening

That’s the quandary that woke me up this morning!  I decided to start my day off with a game of Satori, the Radical Forgiveness board game, to give me new vocabulary and ideas to address that question.  As always, the game was a perfect fit for the story I was acting out!

Before I drew any of the cards to start the game, I wrote out the S.T.O.R.Y. that I was bringing to this game.  Here are the basics:

My story is that I fear John’s return. I have thoroughly enjoyed my solo time, being at Konnarock Trail Camp and on the trail solo. I have enjoyed doing my choices of activities – resting, watching the political scene, writing posts, working on forgivenesswalks, playing Satori. I believe that when John is with  me I must choose to do those things solo or drop my interests and do his choices. So, then I wonder what partnering provides except an inconvenient unpleasant choice! What do we have to do together that outweighs or includes my personal choices? Can I have both?  Can I feel ok with separate interests?  I assume that partnering means relinquishing my interests and choosing his. Is there another way?

Here’s what the game brought!

First, the Event card I picked read Someone betrayed you big time.
“How 
perfect for the story I was telling!” I thought.

Second, the Context card I picked read: Career!
“Perfect, again! I want to choose my career with my partner!”
I laughed.

The game unfolded, as usual, with cards and moves that helped give language and possibilities to a different view of the situation that I could choose if I wanted.  Here are the cards I picked as I moved my piece through the transformational spiral:

Beliefs:

  •  I am invisible and hardly ever noticed.
  • I am not worthy of money.
  • I just don’t look good.
  • I simply cannot trust myself.

These beliefs certainly fed my S.T.O.R.Y.  Then, the turns took me to the New Story gateway.

My New Stories:

  • I have everything I want now.  I am a powerful manifester.
  • I am the luckiest person alive. I am so grateful.

I could certainly see, as I reached Satori, the place of Awakening to a New Story, that there could be other ways of seeing my situation. I affirmed in the Gateway to Surrender that I have released my attachment to my Old Story and I refuse to put any more energy into it.  The game helped me get words for new possibilities that I can focus on if I choose!


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Helpers 

May 28, 2017

I am grateful to my coaches, mentors, and teachers for helping me create Forgivenesswalks!

Colin and Jo Ann Tipping  radicalforgiveness.com
Ladies Who Launch   Ladieswholaunch.com

Laura West     Center for Joyful Business

Wendy Lippard

Ilona Dolinska-Reiser  Wealth Skills

Thea Sheldon  www.theasheldon.com

Bill Baren  www.billbaren.com

Landmark Forum http://www.landmarkworldwide.com/

Anthony Neal

Ellen Britt    http://pinkcoattails.com/

Marnie Marcus   http://marniemarcus.com/unplugged/marketing-consultant/

Julie Ann Turner  http://consciousshift.me/

Barbara Hotz

Brenda Cobb and Jane Holmes   The Living Foods Institute

Debbie Unterman  http://www.debbieunterman.com/

Christina Hills  Website Creation Workshop

Mary Canane http://www.marycanane.com/

Celeste Wilkinson

Jennifer Urezzio  Soul Language

Maritza Parra  https://maritzaparra.com/

David Perdew   https://mynams.com/

Gratitude in Advance

May 17, 2017

Huzzah for speaking up for basic services! My “basic economy” ticket on delta left me with a seat “assigned at the gate”. What an uneasy feeling! At 3:30 am local time I called delta saying, “I really want to know that delta cares about me by assuring me that I have a seat before I get to the gate. What would it take to get that?” “Buy a different ticket next time,” Debbie said. “How about for this flight? Can you tell me if the flight’s overbooked? ” She replied, “No, but I’ll check the seating chart. “Wow!”, I said, “Having a seat would really make a big difference for me! I’m feeling like you really care about me!” Well, she found seats for both flights, and changed my status! I now have seats and a boarding pass! Rachel Rossiter Trabelsi, I was thinking of you as I practiced what you helped me learn during my Introduction Leader Program – affirming my value and being grateful in advance. And, Debbie Unterman Deanna Hohnhorst Colin Tipping for creating the Satori board game that helps me practice the words and feelings of New Stories like “I’m worthy to receive what I need”.  I thanked Debbie, then asked if there was someone I could tell about her service. I assured her supervisor that it really helped me to get that service and will now board the flight believing that delta cares about me. That’s my contribution today toward creating a world of generosity and service. Basic Service. Gratitude in advance.

Town Food

June 12, 2016
I can’t eat what most hikers eat! Here’s what we bought at Food Lion in Front Royal to rejuvenate and celebrate completing our first hundred miles of this trip.

First, we did step one of our three step Don’t- Buy-Too-Much-In-Town plan: go in and buy something to eat right now and leave the store. We bought and devoured:

A banana
Two peaches
Four apricots
Two apples
23 oz. Coconut water

Then, we took step two: go in and look and talk about what to buy (actually, we skipped this step this time, and went right to step three: buy food for the town stop).

Frozen Cod
Kale
Apples
Mushroom antipasto
Carrots
Little red potatoes
Rosemary infused olive oil
Cucumbers
Frozen corn
Another 23 oz. Coconut water

We packed it all over  to the Quality Inn and got a room. Our plan was to cook the fish and potatoes in the microwave, not my specialty! It came out rubbery and melted our rehydrating bowl!

Please send ideas for preparing fish in a hotel room!

The antipasto was delightful! Oh, and the corn tasted sweet and filling, like a desert!

We had some leftovers to pack out, which worked just fine and

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gave a special treat on the trail: carrots, one cuke, three apples, kale. We also stopped at Food Lion again and bought a small tub of hummus, giving us a new rehydrating container.

Contented

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May  8, 2016

The Park season is waning and I am feeling contented with the idea of working for Forgiveness Walks this summer. Allowing coaching, offering programs and products to be the real job that I do within a nomadic setting, is becoming something I can say casually, matter-of factly.

Money Matters

What will it take to know myself as someone who confidently requests and receives money in exchange for my coaching? Today, I acknowledge my belief that I’m acting as if these statements are true: “It’s not ok to request payment for hiking consultation because others do it free.” AND “It’s silly to think that hiking coaching could be my real job! Ridgerunning is a real job, nature interpreting is a real job, but coaching while hiking can’t be a real job.”

Time for a little reframing and turnaround statements! First, for Nonsenses Immersion. Be back later!
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Here it is! What occurred to me in today’s experience is “starting with blank space, I engaged in applying the colors in a systematic way and now there’s a beautiful painting. I didn’t visualize it ahead of time or plan it out, except to work in a circle this time instead of horizontal patches. What if doing business is like that too? Taking the steps of presenting content with inherent value, just like the colors, and present them in a systematic way, allowing their natural value to entice others to invest their own energy to participate in the activity themselves.

What do you think? Is this valuable to you? Do you have valuable content that you’re reluctant to offer? Do you have experience in making this shift in your own business?

I want to hear from you!
Please comment.
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Emotions Become Symptoms

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What an interesting occurrence! This morning when I immersed myself in my nonsensory energy through sensory tones and colors, I felt drawn to linger, to truly immerse myself in the security and familiarity of the exercise, the vitality of the colors. Is that a characteristic of being 23 days into this practice?

Or that today I really needed the balance and vibrance? As the day unfolded, I succumbed to uncomfortable physical symptoms of headache and nausea, that got worse at work.

I’ve come to recognize these symptoms as my manifestation of suppressed emotions. I was upset and stuffing the feelings. Although I haven’t mastered the art of avoiding the syndrome, I’m willing to acknowledge the emotional nature of it. This time, I caught on early and rearranged the day to go home and rest.

This time, my selfcare also includes using an energy shifting tool that helps me identify which emotion is there and clear it. It’s called the Behavioral Barometer, and I’ll have to post the source later.

Although I hadn’t realized just how much I was suppressing the emotions of the past few days, there have actually been several sources of feelings. I guess it all built up. Perhaps the most significant is that today was the new ridgerunner’s meeting with the trail partners. And I wasn’t there! For the past six years I was the one kicking off the season with that meeting. This year, I’m choosing something else. I’m confident about my choice and didn’t realize there was some grieving needed to move on! On top of that, I had offered to call in and join by phone and got no response from the organizers – the people who had praised my work so grandly and even offered to pay me to orient the new guy! Seems that I really was upset and not actually feeling neutral about it!

Which emotions came up to be cleared? Longing. Feeling incurable. Feeling unacceptable. Feeling abandoned. The Emotional Barometer suggests healing feelings. Mine are Decisive. At peace. Intent. Calm. Purposeful.

This is a useful tool for me, a habitual stuffer of feelings that become symptoms. I’m willing to love myself just as I am and be grateful to have this tool to clear these emotions when the symptoms are minor headaches and stomach troubles. Perhaps, they won’t get stuffed into the deep recesses of organs to become cancer…….
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I allowed myself a second NonSensory Immersion, building from the same painting as this morning. I experienced richer, deeper patches of color, more texture, and physical sensations in the corresponding areas of my body.
I rounded out the session, luxuriously long, with a closed-eye meditation with the tones. A thought that rose was this: “Perhaps grieving the closure of my Ridgerunning period flows into the resistance to a New Phase!”

Choosing something different than Ridgerunning begs the question, “What?” I’ve been anwering that with “Expand Forgivenesswalks!” Yet, THAT choice has me becoming something I have yet to understand, to know in my habits, in my sensory reality! Perhaps THAT uncertainty is a source of physical symptoms as well.

With that realization, I could now claim that I am open to knowing myself as the businesswoman creating a community of HeartSinging Walk journeyers who are eagerly investing in themselves, courageously immersing themselves in song, sensory awakening, nonsensory charging, and the Thirteen Steps.

They are feeling their feelings, loving themselves just as they are, and imagining new perspectives and possibilities for their walks, dreams, journeys they had never done before. They feel radiant, alive, calm, open to a new sense of wellbeing that emboldens their steps with new clarity and self confidence.

That is what I imagine and receive for myself!

I would love to chat with you about what resonates with YOU in my exploration today!

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Thanks for journeying with me!
Regina

Plans

Do you make plans, then have backup plans, or fallback plans, none of which seem like what you REALLY want to be doing? The source of the plans are from a list of thinhs I already know are possible because they are already being done, either by me or someone else. I lived like that for decades. I was really good at accommodating, always making the best of my life, willing myself to be content with the life I knew was possible. I believed that what I really wanted, the intimate partnership I desired, the lifestyle and purpose I saw others living that enticed me, were unavailable to me. I resigned myself to accepting what I had, acknowledging that it was the best that I COULD have.

Walking from Maine to Georgia on the Appalachian Trail opened up a door to a new perspective. I experienced myself feeling fulfilled, being with someone who shared my passion, seeing myself physically and emotionally purposeful. Why not continue living that way?

I’ve been doing my best living i to that since then.

Clarifying what makes my heart sing and doing THAT, even in small ways has helped me choose from among various plans. In addition, surprising opportunities, even better than any of the plans I had, have appeared. I’m learning to go with the heartsinging.

Unworthiness Challenged

An argument is wrangling inside me. There’s an actual physical tension in my belly. That’s the FEELING of fear and guilt attached to the thought, “Those other people who have written their books and created their films about their Appalachian Trail journeys are better than I. I have a wonderful personal story of transformation and love, but I haven’t written my story! I don’t deserve recognition or getting attention, and on and on….”
Well, today, I know that this is a S.T.O.R.Y. – a Sustained Tale Of Repressed Yearning,  playing out for my learning and growing. And today, I know that I can love myself having this Story and take it into the Thirteen Steps. So, I’m off to do that! Perfect setup  for NonSenses Immersion!
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Here it is! Funny how it happened that before I got to the colors, I responded to a thread about trailnames, contributing my unique name story to the other beautiful ones. Then, I interrupted the immersion with an email to my former ridgerunning partners, which only I could have done.

What the colors showed me today is that each color IS unique. Blue cant be green – or yellow or red. Yet, they all need to be there for the whole spectrum. Each person -including myself – has a unique story and contribution to make to the World, creating the rainbow of God!!

What’s YOUR uniqueness? Are you living it? Hiding it? Yearning for it? Discovering it?

I want to hear about it! Let’s chat!
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Form Arising

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My Nonsenses  Charging paintings the past two days have emerged with form! Usually, the colors alone in patches and washes satisfy my feelings for a color immersion. As I’ve been shifting my perspective of sharing HeartSingingWalk from secretively personal to universally integrated, I’m allowing sensory shape to become visible.

As I write this, especially those words “universally integrated”, I realize that this journey of consciousness is actually way bigger than my own life! What seems to me now to be a big transformation for me in my own life CAN go even beyond what I have been imagining, until now anyway. I have been fairly daunted with the vision of a tribe of a hundred embracing and integrating HeartSingingWalk in their lives. Suppose the true spirit of HeartSingingWalk is to reach even further than my community! How about thousands walking to Wild Wind and Senses Walk! Holy Moly! That knots my stomach!

What it also does is help me ease into the idea that there are a HUNDRED heartsingers energetically  vibrating with HeartSingingWalk in its current phase of reality.

The tree form arises as a metaphor of my growing idea. From a rich and supportive root of personal and professional assistance in the fertile soil of Time the trunk of Forgivenesswalks rises upward. The tree’s trunk is formed by its sturdy principles of Spiritual and Human unity, Nourishment in Nature, Authentic personal expression as fulfillment of Higher Purpose, and others waiting for language.

These principles grow and branch upward as specific programs and products, delivered through a dichotomous array of community members, all connected as tree branches and growing organically.

The growth experienced by each member produces the leaves, those manifestations of the play of light and water.

That’s the Forgivenesswalks Tree!

I believe that any growing idea could be as a tree, even an imagined walk of the Appalachian Trail! That’s an interesting juxtaposition – turning that wonderful journey metaphor into a tree! Try it! Then, set a time to chat about it with me! I’d love to hear what’s arising from your Nonsensory play as your metaphor for a creation.
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