Stretch

April 29, 2017

32 more days solo. I accept my body stiff and feeling fat. I stretch, roll, chant, and breathe Life and Love and Ease and Flexibility into my body. I notice that I thought “precious body” and would not write that. 

“I am not my body, but I love and accept the body I have.”

Town Food

June 12, 2016
I can’t eat what most hikers eat! Here’s what we bought at Food Lion in Front Royal to rejuvenate and celebrate completing our first hundred miles of this trip.

First, we did step one of our three step Don’t- Buy-Too-Much-In-Town plan: go in and buy something to eat right now and leave the store. We bought and devoured:

A banana
Two peaches
Four apricots
Two apples
23 oz. Coconut water

Then, we took step two: go in and look and talk about what to buy (actually, we skipped this step this time, and went right to step three: buy food for the town stop).

Frozen Cod
Kale
Apples
Mushroom antipasto
Carrots
Little red potatoes
Rosemary infused olive oil
Cucumbers
Frozen corn
Another 23 oz. Coconut water

We packed it all over  to the Quality Inn and got a room. Our plan was to cook the fish and potatoes in the microwave, not my specialty! It came out rubbery and melted our rehydrating bowl!

Please send ideas for preparing fish in a hotel room!

The antipasto was delightful! Oh, and the corn tasted sweet and filling, like a desert!

We had some leftovers to pack out, which worked just fine and

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gave a special treat on the trail: carrots, one cuke, three apples, kale. We also stopped at Food Lion again and bought a small tub of hummus, giving us a new rehydrating container.

Emotions Become Symptoms

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What an interesting occurrence! This morning when I immersed myself in my nonsensory energy through sensory tones and colors, I felt drawn to linger, to truly immerse myself in the security and familiarity of the exercise, the vitality of the colors. Is that a characteristic of being 23 days into this practice?

Or that today I really needed the balance and vibrance? As the day unfolded, I succumbed to uncomfortable physical symptoms of headache and nausea, that got worse at work.

I’ve come to recognize these symptoms as my manifestation of suppressed emotions. I was upset and stuffing the feelings. Although I haven’t mastered the art of avoiding the syndrome, I’m willing to acknowledge the emotional nature of it. This time, I caught on early and rearranged the day to go home and rest.

This time, my selfcare also includes using an energy shifting tool that helps me identify which emotion is there and clear it. It’s called the Behavioral Barometer, and I’ll have to post the source later.

Although I hadn’t realized just how much I was suppressing the emotions of the past few days, there have actually been several sources of feelings. I guess it all built up. Perhaps the most significant is that today was the new ridgerunner’s meeting with the trail partners. And I wasn’t there! For the past six years I was the one kicking off the season with that meeting. This year, I’m choosing something else. I’m confident about my choice and didn’t realize there was some grieving needed to move on! On top of that, I had offered to call in and join by phone and got no response from the organizers – the people who had praised my work so grandly and even offered to pay me to orient the new guy! Seems that I really was upset and not actually feeling neutral about it!

Which emotions came up to be cleared? Longing. Feeling incurable. Feeling unacceptable. Feeling abandoned. The Emotional Barometer suggests healing feelings. Mine are Decisive. At peace. Intent. Calm. Purposeful.

This is a useful tool for me, a habitual stuffer of feelings that become symptoms. I’m willing to love myself just as I am and be grateful to have this tool to clear these emotions when the symptoms are minor headaches and stomach troubles. Perhaps, they won’t get stuffed into the deep recesses of organs to become cancer…….
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I allowed myself a second NonSensory Immersion, building from the same painting as this morning. I experienced richer, deeper patches of color, more texture, and physical sensations in the corresponding areas of my body.
I rounded out the session, luxuriously long, with a closed-eye meditation with the tones. A thought that rose was this: “Perhaps grieving the closure of my Ridgerunning period flows into the resistance to a New Phase!”

Choosing something different than Ridgerunning begs the question, “What?” I’ve been anwering that with “Expand Forgivenesswalks!” Yet, THAT choice has me becoming something I have yet to understand, to know in my habits, in my sensory reality! Perhaps THAT uncertainty is a source of physical symptoms as well.

With that realization, I could now claim that I am open to knowing myself as the businesswoman creating a community of HeartSinging Walk journeyers who are eagerly investing in themselves, courageously immersing themselves in song, sensory awakening, nonsensory charging, and the Thirteen Steps.

They are feeling their feelings, loving themselves just as they are, and imagining new perspectives and possibilities for their walks, dreams, journeys they had never done before. They feel radiant, alive, calm, open to a new sense of wellbeing that emboldens their steps with new clarity and self confidence.

That is what I imagine and receive for myself!

I would love to chat with you about what resonates with YOU in my exploration today!

Send me an email at regina@forgivenesswalks.com

OR schedule a free conversation here:Chat with Regina

Thanks for journeying with me!
Regina

Plans

Do you make plans, then have backup plans, or fallback plans, none of which seem like what you REALLY want to be doing? The source of the plans are from a list of thinhs I already know are possible because they are already being done, either by me or someone else. I lived like that for decades. I was really good at accommodating, always making the best of my life, willing myself to be content with the life I knew was possible. I believed that what I really wanted, the intimate partnership I desired, the lifestyle and purpose I saw others living that enticed me, were unavailable to me. I resigned myself to accepting what I had, acknowledging that it was the best that I COULD have.

Walking from Maine to Georgia on the Appalachian Trail opened up a door to a new perspective. I experienced myself feeling fulfilled, being with someone who shared my passion, seeing myself physically and emotionally purposeful. Why not continue living that way?

I’ve been doing my best living i to that since then.

Clarifying what makes my heart sing and doing THAT, even in small ways has helped me choose from among various plans. In addition, surprising opportunities, even better than any of the plans I had, have appeared. I’m learning to go with the heartsinging.

Heart



I lovingly embrace ALL my life experiences with ease and joy.

Even the scary ones! Even the ones that invite me to allow one certain man to love me and know what I ‘m thinking and  feeling. Even the ones that mean sharing, sharing, sharing (oh my! this is so hard for me and I don’t know why, oh wait, I do know why, it’s because I might make a mistake and someone could be uncomfortable and judge me for being greedy when really they’re seeing themsleves in me because they want to be brave and share what Spirit sings in them…….)

Today, I take into NonSenses Immersion My Brave Heart, bathing it in the green emerald light of Love, Trust, Opening, Receiving, Giving, Sharing, Grieving.

Yammmmm…….

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Interesting! Green, shimmering and full, could only arise OUT of yellow’s nourishing light and blue’s expressive light. My lesson in that is that my sharing may arise out of my nourished and authentically expressed energies. Love stands not alone.

Green also begged for the full spectrum of colors to stand with it. Love attracts wholeness, fulfillment, company!

Opening to Spirit, opens me to YOU!
Let’s chat! How does heart energy arise and flow for you?

Lets Talk Heart!

STEPS

Here’s what I’m taking into my NonSenses Immersion today: I embrace all my life’s experiences with confidence and joy. Where did that come from? Louise Hay’s list of affirmations. My arm has been hurting for a while and her view suggests that’d a sign of resistance to receiving. Interesting!

Another suggestion that receptivity may be a challenge for me was my reaction to watching Milana Leshinski’s invitation to join her Joint Venture Insider’s Circle. “It wouldn’t work for ME! I’m too different. My idea doesn’t fit.”

I’m open, however, to attracting a JV community that DOES support my idea, my niche. That’s what I’ll take into my NonSenses Immersion today. Let’s what what happens! image

Opening to Spirit, opens me to YOU!
Let’s chat! How does heart energy arise and flow for you?
Here’s the link:
Lets Talk Heart!