Landscape

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May 20, 2016
We have one day in Big Bend National Park. Color adorns the mountains and the badlands. What if I paint the Nonsenses colors suggested by the landscape?

The emotional landscape also provides space for dancing as well. I’m uneasy with John’s style of exploring in constant motion. I prefer making fewer stops for a longer, reflective experience. I realize  that I’m playing out an old story of being alone, being separate, needing to ignore my own needs to accommodate his.

This time, I’m aware of the dance, yet still attached to that old story.  Although I’m able to calmly maintain my request to stay in one place for a 20-minute Nonsenses Immersion, a silent voice is saying, “Your needs don’t matter, just do what he wants.”

He stops. “You can do your paintng here.”

My Old Story ego is satisfied with his dispassionate accommodation.  Whew! I can get what I want, but with resistance.

I get out my supplies, choose a spot. Colors! In the landscape before me, they are all there. True, the shades are dark or muted, but all seven colors of my Nonsenses spectrum are there.

I turn on the tones app and dip into my tiny pot of red. “Lammm,” the monks sing. Ahh. I am immersed, relaxed, balanced, exhilarated. As you can see, the painting is a rather bold depiction of a natural desert scene, but that connection with my environment imbues my body with ease.

I feel open, accepted, accepting. We drive on. John says, “I’m glad you did your painting.”

I have stepped into a New Story that my needs matter in a fulfilling relationship.

Fan Mail

“You are AMAZING and I’m in awe at what you do– your REAL JOB!
But, I was amazed at you before– when you were home with your boys and teaching me– your other REAL JOB!!”
Love,
Angie

“Love hearing this, Regina!  Keep up your amazing self for you and the world.”

Ann Keeton
XOXO

These emails are from fans who read my newsletter revealing my claim that I have now transformed my Old Story that sharing my skills as nature interpreter and Radical Forgiveness coach are not my real job. They affirm my New Story:
When I show up as ME, everyone loves me!”

Are you yearning to discover or proclaim YOUR heartsinging expression? Learn HOW in my HeartSinging Walk Community!

In joy,
Regina

Adaptable

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May 17, 2016

Nonsenses Immersion is fun and enlivening for me as the liquid paint colors flow and blend on paper. Traveling in a car, however, motivates me to adapt the exercise with a more portable medium – colored pencils!

Ease

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May 16, 2016
Why does it matter to me so much that I feel balance and ease and beauty on the trail? I’m reading the blog of a woman hiking the Pacific Crest Trail. Her feet hurt. It’s hot. She thinks she has to walk further every day. She lost her first toenail and believes that just goes with the territory. Snakes. Poison oak. Poodle Dog Bush.
Her  writing is alluring because I keep wondering how much worse it can get. Cold. Dirt. Fog. And all of it is baneful, and somehow necessary for pushing through.

Where is the beauty? Why not learn to breathe and meet the mountains? Walk a distance that feels good? Must it be a battle, an ordeal, a lonely, hellish march?

That’s not what I want my long walks to be, and yes, I have had tired feet and focused on making miles. I don’t see much point in walking 12 hours a day except to revel in Nature, however. For me, the athletic part is purely in service of drinking in one more view, another forest, another mountain.

Maybe this is all easy to say while sitting at home, and yet I’ve been where she’s suffering. I walked her hot stretch in the cool of the night marveling at yellow flowers lit by a brilliant full moon. I paced my steps and breathed to let the long climbs unfold like meditations, singing or reciting poetry. I want walking to be a fulfilling, enlivening way to move between heaven and earth, blending myself with the Oneness of everything.

That’s HeartSinging Walk. I believe it and strive for it.

Accept

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May 13, 2016

Today, I accept myself being afraid to share HeartSingng Walk because my emails might bother someone. I accept myself being frustrated by an admin’s rule to not allow coaches to recruit clients in her Facebook group.

I am open that there is an opportunity for me to learn and grow.

My Nonsenses Immersion has sharp borders today. Oh! I just got something from that! I had started with a used painting that had a defined shape. When I applied red, I just went right along with that boundary! Just I like do in the group! It then defined the rest of the painting.

If I would start over with a fresh, blank sheet, there would be  clear space for my expression! Perhaps that’s what I could do about this group! Take a leap, or a step, and start a new group!

I’m open to YOUR ideas and perspective. When you realize you’ve been limiting yourself with pre-exisitng boundaries, what has freed you?

Please comment here.
Or email me at regina@forgivenesswalks.com
Or chat on the phone! Chat with Regina

Or be open to guidance to a completely fresh approach that I don’t even know yet!

Growing Vision

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May 12, 2016

Nonsenses Immersion becomes my “safe place” as I procrastinate reaching out to my community. I am pondering how to make a transition from pert follower and insignificant participant in someone else’s Facebook group to popular, influential, authentically attractive leader of Regina’s HeartSinging Journeyers.

Magic Itinerary Man

May 10, 2016

“If we can take a walk and then  be in a wifi phone spot at nine, that would be great.” I have a magic itinerary man. One of the troubles turned blessing that I’m receiving by allowing Forgivenesswalks to become real is to accept my partner’s passion for exploring. What if, instead of selling out on my business because I don’t have time to do the work, and it’s not something we do together, how about if I let him choose, design, mastermind our itinerary to support me creating connections with my mentors, clients, community?

The transformation in that for me is accepting it! Making the requests, honoring us both. This morning, that worked – as I squirmed and resisted to it and he made my request even bigger  by deciding that I had said that my goal for the walk was to make a video! (What I HAD said is that  I could record my thoughts as we walked, as a way of taking notes).

But, we did it! We explored a beautiful canyon and got back home at 8:45. I got right to work on my computer composing a salespage to work on at 10 a.m. with my mentor.

I AM the possibility of being joyously prosperous!!

Here’s my program offering in progress:
ReginasHeartSingingWalk Community

Comments please!

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Words

May 9, 2016

Today’s Nonsenses Immersion started with words. I was inspired to write words that expressed each of the Nonsenses on the blank paper, anticipating their respective colors. The words informed, energized, and balanced each of the colors as the dance unfolded. What surprised me was the appearance of that form! It was first a vague form, then seemed to need refinement – and feet! Feet are important for standing on the ground, on the Earth! This immersion speaks especially to me today about an invitation to express in words. That’s perfect for my focus on getting out an email to my list on May 10th! That’s the date that I’ve chosen to begin my 62 Days of preparation and community-building for HeartSinging Walk! It’s time for words!

I invite YOUR words! What resonates with you from my experience? Something for your life? Something you want to teach me? Please share with me in any of these ways:

Thanks for being here!

Regina

Money Matters

What will it take to know myself as someone who confidently requests and receives money in exchange for my coaching? Today, I acknowledge my belief that I’m acting as if these statements are true: “It’s not ok to request payment for hiking consultation because others do it free.” AND “It’s silly to think that hiking coaching could be my real job! Ridgerunning is a real job, nature interpreting is a real job, but coaching while hiking can’t be a real job.”

Time for a little reframing and turnaround statements! First, for Nonsenses Immersion. Be back later!
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Here it is! What occurred to me in today’s experience is “starting with blank space, I engaged in applying the colors in a systematic way and now there’s a beautiful painting. I didn’t visualize it ahead of time or plan it out, except to work in a circle this time instead of horizontal patches. What if doing business is like that too? Taking the steps of presenting content with inherent value, just like the colors, and present them in a systematic way, allowing their natural value to entice others to invest their own energy to participate in the activity themselves.

What do you think? Is this valuable to you? Do you have valuable content that you’re reluctant to offer? Do you have experience in making this shift in your own business?

I want to hear from you!
Please comment.
Or send me an email at regina@forgivenesswalks.com

OR schedule a chat with me here:
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Emotions Become Symptoms

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What an interesting occurrence! This morning when I immersed myself in my nonsensory energy through sensory tones and colors, I felt drawn to linger, to truly immerse myself in the security and familiarity of the exercise, the vitality of the colors. Is that a characteristic of being 23 days into this practice?

Or that today I really needed the balance and vibrance? As the day unfolded, I succumbed to uncomfortable physical symptoms of headache and nausea, that got worse at work.

I’ve come to recognize these symptoms as my manifestation of suppressed emotions. I was upset and stuffing the feelings. Although I haven’t mastered the art of avoiding the syndrome, I’m willing to acknowledge the emotional nature of it. This time, I caught on early and rearranged the day to go home and rest.

This time, my selfcare also includes using an energy shifting tool that helps me identify which emotion is there and clear it. It’s called the Behavioral Barometer, and I’ll have to post the source later.

Although I hadn’t realized just how much I was suppressing the emotions of the past few days, there have actually been several sources of feelings. I guess it all built up. Perhaps the most significant is that today was the new ridgerunner’s meeting with the trail partners. And I wasn’t there! For the past six years I was the one kicking off the season with that meeting. This year, I’m choosing something else. I’m confident about my choice and didn’t realize there was some grieving needed to move on! On top of that, I had offered to call in and join by phone and got no response from the organizers – the people who had praised my work so grandly and even offered to pay me to orient the new guy! Seems that I really was upset and not actually feeling neutral about it!

Which emotions came up to be cleared? Longing. Feeling incurable. Feeling unacceptable. Feeling abandoned. The Emotional Barometer suggests healing feelings. Mine are Decisive. At peace. Intent. Calm. Purposeful.

This is a useful tool for me, a habitual stuffer of feelings that become symptoms. I’m willing to love myself just as I am and be grateful to have this tool to clear these emotions when the symptoms are minor headaches and stomach troubles. Perhaps, they won’t get stuffed into the deep recesses of organs to become cancer…….
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I allowed myself a second NonSensory Immersion, building from the same painting as this morning. I experienced richer, deeper patches of color, more texture, and physical sensations in the corresponding areas of my body.
I rounded out the session, luxuriously long, with a closed-eye meditation with the tones. A thought that rose was this: “Perhaps grieving the closure of my Ridgerunning period flows into the resistance to a New Phase!”

Choosing something different than Ridgerunning begs the question, “What?” I’ve been anwering that with “Expand Forgivenesswalks!” Yet, THAT choice has me becoming something I have yet to understand, to know in my habits, in my sensory reality! Perhaps THAT uncertainty is a source of physical symptoms as well.

With that realization, I could now claim that I am open to knowing myself as the businesswoman creating a community of HeartSinging Walk journeyers who are eagerly investing in themselves, courageously immersing themselves in song, sensory awakening, nonsensory charging, and the Thirteen Steps.

They are feeling their feelings, loving themselves just as they are, and imagining new perspectives and possibilities for their walks, dreams, journeys they had never done before. They feel radiant, alive, calm, open to a new sense of wellbeing that emboldens their steps with new clarity and self confidence.

That is what I imagine and receive for myself!

I would love to chat with you about what resonates with YOU in my exploration today!

Send me an email at regina@forgivenesswalks.com

OR schedule a free conversation here:Chat with Regina

Thanks for journeying with me!
Regina