January 25, 2018
Today is my tenth anniversary of completing my thruhike of the Appalachian Trail. Yesterday, I got an anniversary message from my hiking partner that I eant to share with you, dear reader!
I added it to my 2007 Appalachian Trail Journal:
January 24, 2018
I’ve been playing with possibilities for my summer occupation, with an end-of – January deadline for the secure, familiar job offer. I notice how synchronous messages are helping me, waking me up, calling, supporting my choice, teasing me to choose the new, unformed creation, the entrepreneurial one.
- My song muse wrote: “Let’s pick a date for our songfest. How about June 10th?”
- My Ridgerunner supervisor said, “We’d love to have you…and being gone for two weeks at the end of May would not be good.”
- I am committed to taking care of my grandson for two weeks at the end of May.
- My women’s hiking summit coordinator said, “Time to get your workshop description in for our summit in July.”
- My partner said, “I don’t think we’re good partners for each other” on the eve of our tenth anniversary of completing our Appalachian Trail thruhikes together and being together since.
- Ten women said “Yes! I want to learn your technique for climbing mountains easily.
- A hiker in the women’s group invited me to her AT thruhike group saying, “You always have good advice!”
- A women’s group friend posted as a comment on the thread of another hiker who is struggling with a detractor, “my friend, Regina, could suggest ideas about your Inner Journey.”
As wrenching as it is, being solo removes the puzzle of creating a mutually fulfilling situation for two. I can choose for myself. On the other hand it adds more personal responsibility for logistical details, transportation, safety, cameraderie. Most of all, it dissolves the luxurious thrill of intimate co-creation and reliable companionship.
My whole being is swirling in the soup of choice! It’s an emotional hurricane!
January 21, 2018
Summer is coming! Every year for the past seven years, the ATC offers me a ridgerunning job! I love that job! It’s work I enjoy doing and feel good at, and the venue is the absolute best for me. It’s in the dream job category of getting paid to do something I love doing. Here’s the catch, though. As the years go on, I want to add another description to the “what I love doing” category. I want to add, “supporting, inspiring, coaching others to create radiantly fulfilling walks” to my list of job duties.
Ridgerunning doesn’t include that as one of my duties, although many hikers have received emotional support and coaching for their journey by talking with the me as the ridgerunner. When I have those kinds of conversations with hikers, it would be sooo easy to go beyond the scope of my representation of the ATC and into my Forgiveness Walks role. I’m very careful about steering clear of that, and have kept the handful of summer coaching sessions and classes to my days off. No question about that.
Each year, I have more conversations that urge me to entice hikers to focus on their Inner Journey. I am convinced that Inner Journey work is needed in the hiking community. I walk up favorite mountains imagining retreats, meditations, 13-Steps processes with guidance for hikers in using tools for introspection, charging their energy, clearing out old emotional baggage, meeting each mountain with balanced energy and choice. I have a job mapped out in my head, with pages of notes describing my programs. I have been working with a business coach to learn systems and habits of successful entrepreneurs. In my mind, Forgiveness Walks could be my fulltime job. I even talked about doing that a couple of years ago when I took a summer off ridgerunning. I started out on my hiking summer with John promoting a group coaching program. I gave it up when we didn’t see eye to eye (or foot to foot, I suppose for hikers!) about how to adapt our pace to my “walk in service” vision.
But, the call to “walk in service” is still calling! With Facebook, especially in a women’s hiking group of over ten thousand members, the conversations continue, in greater numbers, and with more clarity about how transformative and strengthening women’s walks could be when they have tools for turning their troubles into blessings. I can help with that!
The question is, is that NOW? Is it time to open the doors to Forgiveness Walks NOW (as in summer 2018)? Instead of working another season at Ridgerunning? In addition to Ridgerunning? In another fashion altogether? (I’m always open to at least three choices!)
When January ends, I will have chosen. I know it. I have chosen clearly for the past seven years.
I am open to your suggestions and comments!
Hit reply and let ’em fly!
January 9, 2018
Can anyone tell me how to get self-discipline? I don’t have much or maybe any. I need some. A lot. I have some serious things I need to change. I have no self-discipline to change them. I am so frustrated with myself.
A friend posted this on Facebook. I have an idea about this! Play the game Satori! You’ve heard me talk about it and invite you to play, I’m sure.
I use it regularly for Old Stories in my own life. I play the game solo, with ithers, with my partner. What happens is that I discover language that describes my unconscious beliefs. I chuckle often during the game because it seems uncanny that the cards I pick randomly seem to fit my story. I realize that my stories, beliefs, energy blocks, and projections are familiar ones to the general human experience. “Ah, so I’m not alone, or unusual, or hopelessly different after all!”
Satori helps me see humor and lightness in my emotional stuckness. It gives me a form and some space to air my grievances. Ultimately, it moves me to accept myself just as I am and finally speak a new way to look at my situation.
And, the benefit of that? To free me from my past! Give me a new choice to choose if I want to!
My favorite square to land on is “Self Acceptance” that says, “Affirm:I love myself being in my feelings about this, and know that when I’m ready I can choose peace.”
I’ll be setting up Satori games played by phone during February. Hit reply and say “I want to play!” and you can help choose the dates!
P.S. Here’s info about the game if you are unfamiliar.