40th Sunrise Watch

November 22, 2107

Today marks the 4oth consecutive day John and I have watched the sunrise! I continue to be enthralled by the variation of colors, light patterns, even suspense level in the daily display of this dependable phenomenon.  Can I be, or can my life be, like the sunrise? Reliable, colorfully variable, always worth getting up for?

Well, I know having the sun to watch every morning can give my life that encouraging quality! What’s occurring to me as I reflect on this is the idea that I would like to be someone to be counted on with a message that discovering and choosing one’s unique fulfillment is something worth getting up for every day. I want to be colorful, varied, maybe even suspenseful, with sharing my experiences of walking in Nature using the tools of Radical Forgiveness as a path to fulfillment.  That would be my fulfillment.

I suppose one difference between me and the sun is that I get to choose to walk my path. Every day I get to choose, actually! Does the sun choose? I have thought not. And, you know, the way the idea of walking and using Radical Forgiveness is always on my mind, inspires the thought that maybe I don’t have to make my life purpose question so hard, either. The sun has a unique purpose. It’s the only one doing its job. What it does is do that every day, varying the colors, the moods, the expression, in a pattern of seasonal and daily rhythm. Maybe my tendency to always be thinking about walking in Nature, about playing Satori, about doing Circle Ceremonies, and about guiding people in the 13 Steps together with colorful energy balancing is my clue to my job.

Like my friend who answered her call to work with horses.

Or another friend who discovered that if he keeps dancing life and love dance too.

It’s funny that even though I’ve been diligent in getting up for sunrise every day for the past 40 days, it was just this morning that a song I loved, well, not quite 40 years ago, popped into my head. Thanks to Youtube, I can share it with you! Dan Fogelberg’s To the Morning.

My favorite line in it is:

Well it’s going to be a day. There is really no way to say “No” to the morning.

Maybe there’s no way to say no to my calling, either.  What do you think?

P.S. What a sobering surprise!!! While enjoying my revival of this song, I discovered that Dan Fogelberg has already passed on! Dang! Aged 56, with prostate cancer. That sure reminds me that fulfilling my purpose is something to attend, to keep choosing and expressing – before it’s too late! That said, my Radical Forgiveness view would help me be open to the idea that everything is perfect from a Spiritual perspective. Dan’s time was perfect for his soul journey, as mine will be also.  Perhaps I can’t miss my life’s purpose, after all! And, it will be a whole lot more fun to fill it with forgivenesswalks in Nature than other things!  I sure am glad that Dan sang!

Your thoughts?

Love,

Regina

 

Gratitude

November 20, 2017

Thanks for reading! I love delving into my life’s journey with the tools of Radical Forgiveness.  Using the tools often helps me love myself having my feelings and using them to open my heart to myself and others. When that happens, I have more energy to get things done and to create in many different ways. I can relate with others more easily too! I’m much calmer in crises and can listen to others’ drama without having to get caught up in it myself.

For comparison, Thanksgiving Day reminds me of how I used to be and how I know my life is better now. At a family Thanksgiving gathering, my sister made a comment about my tofu dish. My stuffed anger and shame exploded and I threw the glass casserole dish to the floor. Crash!

Of course, that didn’t address my emotions, just made them worse, right? Making a scene just gave everyone else the chance to stuff their feelings and clean up the mess.

The Radical Forgiveness tools – Satori, the 13 Steps, and RF worksheets have been gateways for me to recognize limiting beliefs, practice venting, learn a new loving vocabulary, and entertain new perspectives for my views. I like the way the tools reliably guide me through my upsets without me having to figure anything out. It seems like miracles happen when I do.

Thanks for reading my blogposts! You know, it actually helps keep me accountable to my path, which I gladly will continue!

Let me know how I’m helping you, and what you need! I want the best for you too!

Here’s a link to The 13 Steps process. Maybe you can use it for a Thanksgiving clearing!

http:// forgivenesswalks.com/the-13steps-to-radical -forgiveness

Joy to you!

Regina

 

 

2000 Miler Anniversary

November 15, 2017

What would I feel when I crossed that road, meeting the spot where I had left the trail two years before? When I got there I could celebrate having walked all 2,175 miles of the Appalachian Trail. The spot lacked the drama of Mt. Katahdin or Springer Mountain, the geographic endpoints of the trail. My completion point was the crossing of VA state route 624, near Catawba. There’s no sign or plaque, no natural landmark or feature. Just white blazes on both sides indicating that the trail continues in both directions.

What did I do?

I cried. I burst into tears, saying “I’ve walked all of the Appalachian Trail. I’ve completed something that seemed really big. Now I can say, yes, I’ve walked the AT, in one short sentence.” 

They were the kind of tears that well up unawares, like when my Dad showed up to pick me up from camp when I thought my friend’s dad would be there. Underneath was the belief that he would be too busy and I wasn’t important enough since there were so many other kids. This was like that too, only this time it was myself trying to stuff down the importance of this accomplishment, like there were so many other worthy accomplishments, why did this matter so much? Well, because it did, that’s all.
John, my hiking partner, took my picture. It’s a good thing it’s blurry because my face was all squeezed with crying, so my victory pose steals the show. It was dusk on a cold day and we needed to find our tentsite for the night, just like other nights on the trail. 

In the morning we would continue south – toward John’s completion spot about 250 miles further at Damascus. I would keep walking with him, adding miles to my second traverse of the AT, ulimately going all 693 miles to Springer Mountain. For the night though, I could rest on my laurels of being an Appalachian Trail 2000 miler. 

Today marks the tenth anniversary of that moment. I’m still walking trails with Hiker John, whose presence with me that day signifies one of the most dramatic changes my Thruhike initiated. My husband John had left the trail just two days before, having aborted his three-week time with me after just ten days. Hiker John had jumped back to walk with me again, planning to retrace the 180 miles he had covered while I had been walking with John.

Although I had thought I would finish the trail and then go back home to resume my life with John, in our hearts we had already taken separate paths. Stumbling along to our divorce is another chapter in our Inner Journey.

Today, I can remember and celebrate a completion along my way – becoming an Appalachian Trail 2000 Miler.

2000 miler

Sunrise Surprise

November 7, 2017

“It’s really not coming up! It’s just like that story I read my boys about how the sun was brought back to the sky!”

On our 25th consecutive day of sunrise watching, there were no colors and no orb to be seen! Sunrise time was 6:09, and at 6:13 we had still seen no pink or gold and no disk either. Just gray clouds with a few slits of light! 

I thought, “This gives me all kinds of permission to take a break from shining in my own life, well, at least every once in a while, like maybe once in twenty-five days!” Don’t get me wrong, it was still beautiful in a subtle way, but different! Here’s my photo:

And guess what that evening’s sunset offered? Stupendous color! Sky-covering brilliance! 

Are you hiding your brilliance, taking a break from shining today? Perhaps a limiting belief, blame, or energy block is muting your joyous expression? I can help you clear away the clouds, starting with listening to witness and validate your story. 

Reply to this email with “I want to shine!” and we’ll  choose a time to chat.

In joy,

Regina

Close to Home

Satori

November 2, 2017

Satori magic with my partner. Those beliefs! Every time, what I pick fits  the situation. This time, we both started with current stories from our day. Mine was “I need to give support without receiving support.” 

When I drew my “Event” card from the game deck, it said, “You were made to be the scapegoat.” Oh yes, there it was! He had said I had gotten HIM all riled up. We were a perfect match for the game. Actually, it was a challenge for me to stay in it, I had such a charge about being blamed! 

But, I persisted, letting the game be my support, and like a wise, objective guide for both of us, it guided me through our mutually entrapping stories.

Twice, I picked “Releasing Breath” and twice spun the color wheel to “Spirituality, Inspiration, Faith” for the energy block to clear. Ahhh. So that was my opening! Let SPIRIT be my support! Of course!

And there it was, my New Story said, “I trust myself and the Universe to support me at all times.”

What I love about playing Satori when there’s an issue right at hand is that I don’t have to figure anything out. It truly is like having an objective third facilitator setting a path for us to follow. We can be there having our feelings, our blame, our resistance to each other while leaning into another consciousness instead of each other. I like that!

And in the end, we get to say together the Radical Forgiveness Invocation.

May we all stand firm in the knowledge and comfort that all things are now, have always been, and forever will be in Divine order, unfolding according to a Divine plan. May we surrender to this truth whether we understand it or not. May also ask for support in consciousness in feeling the connection with the Divine part of us, with everyone and with everything, so that we can truly say and feel, we are One.

Curious about Satori? Here’s a short video I made about it. 

Satori

If you want to play, we can set up a phone game! If you’re interested in that, please reply to this email and say, “I want to play Satori!”

It’s my favorite game!

In joy,

Regina